Life Sucks…!

Notice: Cerita boring, aku hanya nak lepaskan perasaan sikit.

Kadang kala aku fed up menjadi orang baik. Seriously, bukan nak angkat diri tapi aku rasa aku dalam golongan orang yang baik. Let say malam ini kereta aku kena conteng or tayar kereta ada orang pancit, confirm esok aku akan pecah kepala nak fikir siapa sengaja sabotage aku. Since last time I count, I have no enemy. For a 27 years old dude, takde enemy lansung consider orang baik lah kan. Hahahaha…

Kenapa aku fed up? Bila kita baik, then let say for once kita lari sedikit dari sifat baik kita people will see it as a very big issue. Here two incidents happen to me last few days I want to share with friend here.

Kisah 1
A friend of mine needs cash to repair his car. I would say, every month he will borrow money from me, 50 or seratus ringgit tu biasa lah. I have no problem with that, since dia tidak pernah bermasalah untuk bayar balik. So, now he asked RM200 to repair his car. I told him this month aku sendiri berjimat since I bought few electrical appliances for myself and also last month aku pakai credit card lebih to repair my own car. He straight away jumps into conclusion that I refused to help him. Dia tuduh aku tak percayakan dia eventhoug he always paid every single cent he borrowed from me. Cuba bayangkan, after so many times aku tolong dia, sekali aku refused and now I in a verge of losing one friend. Padahal, dia ada ramai lagi kawan yang sememangnya tidak mungkin tolong dia. Bodoh punya member…

Kisah 2
Last week, ada satu fiber link penting yang kena up secepat mungkin. So, I asked best team yang aku ada untuk buat link tu. Around 2 kilometers fiber cable somewhere near Kelana Jaya. Then, a day before the deadline aku buat testing, everything seems ok and perfect. Suddenly pagi tu bila kami buat testing sekali lagi we found one big problem few meters before the ending point, just a couple of hours before the link must be up. Even my CEO sms aku and asked me to make sure the link are in rock solid condition. So, let say I lost my temper and start maki everybody kat site. I even kicked few items in front of me. We have to dig deep to solve the problem, finally after delayed 1 hour the problem solved and the link now in the best shape possible. Because of that incident, those yang ada kat site hari tu start tengok aku lain macam. They never saw me that angry ever. Padahal, aku bukanlah orang yang senang marah… Kalau aku yang jenis biasa marah, even aku mengamok macam mana pun hari tu, nobody will notice and treat me differently. Right…?

Sometimes I believe we should not set our standard too high or too low. So, easy for us to swing any direction depends on situation and obligation.

Entah lah…